Misfits

I have battled being a misfit for as long as I can remember. I never seemed to quite fit in growing up, even with my family. They all have dark hair, tan skin, and dark eyes. I have red hair, freckles, and green eyes. Granted- The older I get, the more I look like my mom. And of course my cousins on my dad's side have strawberry blond hair and/or light eyes. So, clearly I figured out that I fit in after years of not knowing my cousins. But personality wise, I just never felt like I fit in with any one. Everyone is either much older than me, or quite a few years younger than me. I didn't have the friendships that my cousins and brothers had during family get togethers.

I'm not sure I have really ever found a place where I belong. I keep moving around, hoping to find that place. I always feel like I'm on the outside of a glass house peering in at a party. I'm either the only one not married, the only one my age, the only one with a college education, the only one with only a bachelors degree, the only one with a dog, the only one without kids.... The list goes on.

I feel like the only other thing I fit with is Sassy. She is a misfit in her own way. She has a bald spot in front of her left ear from her prior order. Her nose is slanted. She has a goofy personality. She is my misfit. To some, she is just a dog. To me she the only real constant I've had the last year and a half. She snuggles with me when I'm sick, let's me cry on her, doesn't judge me... She tried helping me up when I took a nasty fall in the house and when she realized she couldn't help she just laid down with me til I was ready to get up.

I want to fit in somewhere. I get jealous of the people who have a place where they fit. They have the job where they fit in with their co-workers. They have friends that are the same age and are at the same place in life that they are. They have siblings or cousins that they really grew up with, not ones they grew up around. 

I want to be someone's missing puzzle piece...