Last week was a really trying week for me. I have learned that sometimes it's ok to take a step back and regroup, even if that means having to take a step back from a best friend. As long as I am true to myself, and honest with others on how I am feeling, things will work out.
I finally came clean about being "babied out" to Seth. I knew that if I told Brenda one-on-one, things would get misconstrued out of frustration, on both sides, and things would get worse before getting better. I knew that if I told Seth everything that was going on, he would be able to tell Brenda and reassure her that it isn't anything personal towards her- it is something that I needed to handle. I knew she would hurt, be upset, then process and reach out to me when she was calm. It took a day and a half, but it played out the way I envisioned it would. We talked about our feelings, we realized we were both hurting (both inside, and we were inadvertently hurting each other). The most hurt, for me, came from the realization that we were having a tiff. In our just over a year friendship, we haven't had more than a couple of little tiffs. However, as someone pointed out to me- it isn't a real relationship without tiffs. It means we care. It means that we have opened ourselves up to someone else and allowed them MEAN something. I don't let many people past my walls. I built them to protect me. I don't love (in any sense of the word) freely. When I do, I go all in- I throw caution to the wind and let the person see all of me (good and bad), and I give my all to make sure that person is happy, safe, etc. I feel like Brenda and I got to a good place and we can go back to being our normal team of Frick and Frack.
In other news, I discovered a website that is almost like an Amazon for start up products. You name it, the product is probably on there. You can apply to be a tester of items and if you get selected they send you the product for free. All you have to do is write a review, or whatever other requirement they have (some require YouTube videos, some require Instagram photos...). So, I'm testing out two different supplements right now. Hopefully they actually work for me. In about a month I will write a review on them. Until then, I'll be a little hush hush on it.
OH! And- we leave in 12 days for our rafting trip down through the Grand Canyon. I'm super excited. This is a once in a lifetime trip for us. This is also the first time I am taking such a long vacation. The longest I've been gone is just around 2 weeks. This time- it is 2.5 weeks. Rafting, hiking, and camping. I can't wait.
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